Bill left for the police academy on Sunday morning and I must say, it's pretty lonely being home alone with just Allie. But at least we have each other! She cracks me up everyday and she's getting a lot better with saying "yes" and "no" at the right times and differentiating between the two so that makes things much easier because she responds to me when I ask her things. She's been sick since Saturday though so being here by myself has been tough. She's been waking up a lot at night and has not been her happy self during the day. She had a really bad ear infection and fever when we went to the ER Sunday morning but at least it was something the doctor could diagnose and we could get medicine for. At about 12:30 Sunday morning we tried to give her Tylenol because she was burning up but almost instantly Allie threw it up, as well as most of what she ate I think for two days all over me! It was awful! But a tubby took care of that and we spent the whole night snuggling on her bedroom floor and watching Elmo because her fever was too high for her to sleep. Hopefully the medicine clears up the ear infection though because I can honestly say there is nothing worse than seeing your child in pain. I think any mom would agree with that...
But anyway, Bill loves his job here which is great. At least making the move down here for the job was a good idea! I am still hardcore searching for a job but no luck so far. I'm applying for anything. Retail jobs, waitressing, receptionist positions, and I keep looking at the state website for jobs with DSS or in the Juvenile Justice system which is my ideal job but those are hard to come by with budget cuts everywhere it seems. I can honestly say I think about money most of the day and worry about bills and how we are going to cover everything but I am really trying to think positive and know that God has a plan for me and when the right job comes up, it will happen. The academy is 12 weeks and Bill graduates October 21. After that he will get a (small) raise which will be nice and then he can start doing overtime so that will help us out too. And for the first time in months we won't have to count down to the next time he has to leave for an extended period of time and leave Allie and I, which I know is so hard for him. For now I'm just glad we have a credit card to cover things, I just wish we didn't have to use it and run up the balance more for the time being. But it's a continuous cycle so if that's the way it has to be, so be it I guess. I just hope in the coming months I can make some friends and Allie and I can really find out niche here. I'm happy, but also lonely and a little down. I miss my family so much and my job at BSU a ton. The RAs go back for training in a few weeks and to think I won't be there really upsets me. I keep saying "we" when I talk about the school in reference like I still work there and Bill has to correct me. It's like second nature. I should probably work on that though...
That's all that's going on for now. 2 days of the academy are down, only a whole bunch more to go!
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