4 Weeks!

After today, Bill only has 4 weeks left of the police academy and then he will finally be home and back to a normal schedule and here with us all the time! His graduation is October 21st in Columbia and I can't wait for it. I am going to be such a proud wife, beaming with such admiration. I know it's cheesy but he's worked so hard and the light is finally at the end of the tunnel. He's done really well so far and will most likely graduate with honors which will mean a lot to him. When we were in college he never worried about his grades or studied a ton like I did, but this time it's different. He's concerned if he doesn't do well and studies every night with his roommate which is good for him that he has someone to live with who also has a wife and child so he knows how difficult this whole process has been.

In other news, I really like my job so far at Aeropostale. Being an Assistant Manager is a lot different from when I worked there before as just a sales associate. I love being able to open and close the store and get all the paperwork and merchandising stuff done throughout the day. I just have a much bigger investment in it this time and I'm really enjoying it. My coworkers are great and the store manager and other assistant are great so I think we will become friends outside of work which is what I was hoping for. The part timers who work there are all high school and college age students and so far they've been very welcoming and nice to me so I'm glad I found and got the job. I got paid yesterday and we are finally back on track to pay our medical bills off and the credit cards. We are in the process of looking for a nice new daycare for Allie and then we will be all set. With my hours we need a sitter a couple days a week for the nights I work late but I used SitterCity.com and a lot of people have applied so I'm sure I will find someone out of that. I've looked at a few daycares and one was awful, but the other seemed better and it's literally a 45 second drive from the apartment and has good hours so she will probably go there. A center isn't what I wanted to put her in, but home daycares here don't accomodate the hours we need. I knew I wouldn't find anything as good as we had at Julies in MA but as long as she is cared for and her development is nurtured, we will be happy.

The last bit of exciting news (for me anyway) is that my sister is coming to visit on Tuesday with Ava. They are coming for 10 days and I can't wait to show them around. Court has never been to Myrtle Beach so it will be a lot of fun and she can spend some time with Allie while I work. All in all, things are going great. They were rocky for a few days but I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason, and that God wouldn't give me more than I could handle. And everything that happens has been for the better, trust me!

New Job And A New Beginning!

Well, it's not the most recent of news, but still exciting. I got the job at Aeropostale as one of the Assistant Managers and I start Monday! Tomorrow will be my last day unemployed and I have big plans to go to church, hang out with Allie and Bill, and get things together for Monday. I'm nervous to go back to work because Allie and I have bonded so strongly over the past 3 months. She's such a sweet little girl and we had such a great time adjusting to Myrtle Beach and going to the pool, and the beach, and just getting to know the area. I think I'm actually more nervous about leaving her this time to go back to work than I was when I finished my maternity leave.  And going back to work will be good for both of us. It will give me some time away from her and to myself, and Allie can get used to being with other people and not seeing me 24/7 which has made her very dependent and attached to me. And of course, me getting a paycheck again will make things better for all of us. I never really thought I would end up back at Aero but the job posting caught my eye and I'm glad I went for it. My manager seems great and very understanding that I have a child and willing to work with me on any schedule needs I may have, and the other assistant manager has a young child as well so it's nice that someone else knows what it's like being a parent to a young child that needs you a lot. I can't wait to be in a management role there now because I really enjoyed when I worked there before and this time I will have a lot more responsibility and a steady schedule and income. The DM who interviewed me said there's lots of room for advancement within the company so who knows, maybe I will be able to move up and make a career out of this!

Job?!

Yesterday began Bills 3rd week at the academy so lucky for us, there are only 9 more after this week! The weeks are going by slowly but since my friends Katie and Allye got here and are staying with me to help me with Allie and hopefully get established down here and find jobs, the days are going by much quicker and I am much happier to have people to talk too and go out with. Being home with Allie is great of course and I love her to pieces, but it's hard being home with just her and not having Bill around or people my own age to hang out with. But things have gotten much better and on a positive note, I had a job interview last week for an Assistant Manager position at Aeropostale and I'm feeling very confident about it. I heard back today and got some good news so hopefully tomorrow or Wednesday I will get the call with some definite good news so ::fingers crossed::. The pay is decent and it will 100% help us out to be able to cover all our bills and put the rest of my paycheck towards paying down the credit cards that we've jacked up over the past few months. And not to mention, I will be working again which will be great and make me appreciate the time I have with Allie even more.

In other news, we've been living down here for two months now and we are adjusting very well. Bill loves his job, Allie is doing great and loves going to the beach, and even though I miss my family terribly, I am adjusting a lot better than I thought I would. :) Hopefully things will come full circle for us soon and we can start saving again to get the house we so badly want!

Police Academy.

Bill left for the police academy on Sunday morning and I must say, it's pretty lonely being home alone with just Allie. But at least we have each other! She cracks me up everyday and she's getting a lot better with saying "yes" and "no" at the right times and differentiating between the two so that makes things much easier because she responds to me when I ask her things. She's been sick since Saturday though so being here by myself has been tough. She's been waking up a lot at night and has not been her happy self during the day. She had a really bad ear infection and fever when we went to the ER Sunday morning but at least it was something the doctor could diagnose and we could get medicine for. At about 12:30 Sunday morning we tried to give her Tylenol because she was burning up but almost instantly Allie threw it up, as well as most of what she ate I think for two days all over me! It was awful! But a tubby took care of that and we spent the whole night snuggling on her bedroom floor and watching Elmo because her fever was too high for her to sleep. Hopefully the medicine clears up the ear infection though because I can honestly say there is nothing worse than seeing your child in pain. I think any mom would agree with that...

But anyway, Bill loves his job here which is great. At least making the move down here for the job was a good idea! I am still hardcore searching for a job but no luck so far. I'm applying for anything. Retail jobs, waitressing, receptionist positions, and I keep looking at the state website for jobs with DSS or in the Juvenile Justice system which is my ideal job but those are hard to come by with budget cuts everywhere it seems. I can honestly say I think about money most of the day and worry about bills and how we are going to cover everything but I am really trying to think positive and know that God has a plan for me and when the right job comes up, it will happen. The academy is 12 weeks and Bill graduates October 21. After that he will get a (small) raise which will be nice and then he can start doing overtime so that will help us out too. And for the first time in months we won't have to count down to the next time he has to leave for an extended period of time and leave Allie and I, which I know is so hard for him. For now I'm just glad we have a credit card to cover things, I just wish we didn't have to use it and run up the balance more for the time being. But it's a continuous cycle so if that's the way it has to be, so be it I guess. I just hope in the coming months I can make some friends and Allie and I can really find out niche here. I'm happy, but also lonely and a little down. I miss my family so much and my job at BSU a ton. The RAs go back for training in a few weeks and to think I won't be there really upsets me. I keep saying "we" when I talk about the school in reference like I still work there and Bill has to correct me. It's like second nature. I should probably work on that though...

That's all that's going on for now. 2 days of the academy are down, only a whole bunch more to go!

Disney!

I'm sitting outside writing this blog because 1) the weather is beautifu instead of stifling hot for once and 2) Allies schedule got royally messed with while we were in Disney (it was vacation after all) so she doesn't go down to sleep very easily anymore and she's screaming and I couldn't take it anymore. But believe me, I'm not a bad mom, sometimes you just have to let them "cry it out" because if it was up to her she would run around playing until she fell to the ground and passed out. But anyway, Disney was great. Bill's parents took us and we had a blast. We went to the Magic Kingdom first last Saturday and saw Mickey and Minnie right away and while you could tell Allie was a bit nervous, she didn't scream or run away so I consider that a success. Someone also told me that I was "the most excited mom they'd seen in a while" so that made me happy. I really wanted her to enjoy her time there and share my enthusiasm which I think she did. She absolutely loved the Country Bear Jamboree, and the aquarium exhibit at Epcot that followed the Finding Nemo ride. She actually went on a lot of rides and did great. She napped at the park for a little bit which I was surprised she even did but getting her down at night was quite the hassle. By the end of the trip you could tell she was exhausted and just needed a good nights sleep in her own crib with her toys and "sound spa". I have to say though that I think one of her favorite places was Blizzard Beach. She adores being in the water and they had a nice wading area there so she could walk around and play but I didn't have to worry about her falling in. She went down some slides (she even got stuck on one!) and liked it when I pushed her on a tube in the lazy river. Seeing her have so much fun made me wish we had a nice kiddie pool here so she could hang out in it and I could sit in it and not have to constantly be on edge but we have a pool at the complex so we'll take it! I definitely wish Bill could have come with us to see how much fun she had and how she would light up at certain characters or get up and start dancing at shows we went to see but since he's the only one working, he couldn't afford to take time off. Hopefully we can go back soon though and he can be there to take her on rides and be part of the enjoyment.

But now it's back to reality and the reality is, I need to find a job! We found out that when Bill goes to the academy for 12 weeks we lose the break on rent we got for him being the Courtesy Officer for the complex so now I absolutely have to work so we can make ends meet and maybe have some money left over. I've been applying for jobs left and right and am just praying I hear from someone. It puts a pit in my stomach to think about having to put Allie back in daycare but it may be for the best. Her attachment to me is becoming very intense so it may be beneficial for her to be away from me for a bit each day. At this point I will take anything though so I'm on the hunt. Here we go!

One Month!

I have officially been in SC one month today! It's gone by very quickly and so far things are going well. I finally got my license today after hunting down 101 different documents the DMV needed so all I really have left to do to be officially "relocated" is register the two cars. I can register the Kia next week when our new insurance starts, and I'm waiting to do the Mazda until October when our insurance is up and I set up new insurance that is valid in SC. The Mazda's lease is up in October too but I think I am just going to keep it because it is a good car, I kept it in great condition, and I don't really have the money for a down payment, or an excise tax or any of that nonsense. I was able to find Bill and I a new doctor, and Allie had her 15 month (we were a little bit late, she was 16 months yesterday!) wellness check last week and we really like her new pediatrician. They really took their time going over safety reminders with us and what we should be working with her on. The doctor seemed impressed with how many words she said and how well she mimicked us so that made us feel good. She's growing like a weed too. She's now 31 inches tall, and weighs in at a whopping 24.4 lbs! And she's getting smarter by the day. She repeats everything, knows to throw things away when I ask her too, says "please" if she wants to get up on the chair, chases Flopsy around and tries so hard to give him a hug, and just does so much that make me think "Where did she learn that?!" I wish I could tape her every move because she's just too funny. But enough about my wonderful child! Onto other things...

Allie and I leave for Disney on Friday and we're very excited. We're going with Bills parents and Bills youngest brother Jeff. It was initially going to be a trip for the whole family (Bills parents, Bill and Allie and I, and Bills 3 brothers) but because of work schedules, Bill and his brothers Brian and Tommy can't get the time off so they can't go. I really wish they could but I know they have to work to support themselves. We're getting Park Hopper passes and I know Bills mom and dad will love to take care of Allie and give me some much needed relaxation and time away from her. It's going to be hot as anything in Florida but since it's 110* here in Myrtle Beach today, I think we can take it.

Lets see, what else? Bills job is going great. He's really adjusting well and his partner thinks he is doing a great job and will have a great career. Yesterday he had to go help rescue 6 puppies! There were of course other, more serious calls he responded too, but that's the one I like to tell people. :) I'm still unemployed but I am enjoying being a SAHM so much! Being able to see Allie every morning and when she wakes up from her naps and how smiley and happy she is, is just the best. She's napping right now and I just went in to see her and she's sleeping just like Bill. It's scary how much she does that's like him. I would love to stay at home with her always but that is in no way financially possible. Maybe if I keep working now and we save I will have the chance to stay home later on when we have more kids and they need rides to 100 different sporting events and friends houses, like my mom did for us. :)

I guess that's it for now. I really like living down here and hope that the coming weeks bring more people that we meet and some new friends. Allie and I went to church yesterday and she did great. It was my third week going and I think I am going to attend regularly and really get back into my faith and raise Allie like that too. I think it's important and in the past few months when I was very stressed and uncertain about this move, having my faith and being able to talk to God really helped. I know it's not for everyone but it works for me so I am going to stick with it.

So I guess that's all. Until next time...

Thoughts.

Casey Anthony was found "not guilty" today. It was a shock to most of the country to say the least. I think the majority of people felt she was guilty of not only murder, but of being a disgraceful mother. I mean who doesn't report their child missing for 31 days?! And not only that, but is seen out partyin during that time period. If Allie was missing 10 minutes I would be on the horn asking for all the help I gcould. And that's only if I let her out of my sight for that long! But anyway, whether she is guilty or not, she is going to walk out of court on Thursday with time served and be back out on the street. The jury did their job of putting their personal feelings aside and not letting the media hype get to them. And the bottom line is, the Prosecution didn't do theirs. It was their job to prove she killed her baby, and they couldn't. No one knows when or how that child died, and the prosecution only had a theory of what happened and the defense did do their job of putting reasonable doubt in the mind of the jurors. That's what it comes down too, and that's the justice system whether we like it or not. It's over now and all we can do is hope Caylee rests in peace, and if Casey did do it, she gets what is coming to her. A couple of minutes after the verdict was read, when I was sitting on the couch with my mouth hanging open, I heard Allie wake up from her nap and start babbling away in her crib. As soon as I walked in her room, she was standing up smiling so big with her hair going in about 100 different directions. I actually got tears in my eyes because all I could think was "who could ever hurt their child?!" Allie is my everything, and when I see her I beam with pride. Caylee Anthony was a gorgeous little girl and she deserved a hell of a lot better than she got. Whether her mom did kill her, or didn't, she shouldn't have been discarded like trash, and I will pray for that little girl to rest in peace. She didn't ask to be born into that clearly dysfunctional family, but maybe now Casey will provide some answers because at this point, if she does confess, the state can't charge her again...